Friday, May 02, 2014

RANDOM MUSINGS

                                                I love you.... Silly...

                                                He always says that to me.
                                      When all drowned in vulnerability
                                                 I have his assurance
                                                that he will be with me
                                                No matter what…
                                                 No matter how
                                                our days will be...
 


  
                                             Through the joys
and miseries
                                                        We’ll get it through
                                                      above all uncertainties
                                             Together we’ll face tomorrow
                                                                  Holding ...
                                                                   Loving…
                                                                   Caring…

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

ILLUSIONED PAST

She sleeps with her eyes half-open and voices bother her like unwanted visitors. She loves the smell of her bed-sheets. She loves to watch the world from the heights of her stilettos. She watches musicals about love and comedies about well, love. She folds herself and lies silently in between the pages of her paperbacks for hours. She bathes for hours. She waits for no one...for hours.
She drinks water in sips. She hates traffic. She loves those frills around her dresses.She love to fold the pillow covers. She loves dark chocolates. She loves the crust of the cakes. She likes her breath after a cup of coffee.

She wants to whistle when on a long walk, only she doesn't know how to. She wants to fly, alone. She wants to climb the highest of the mountains and sit there till the stars come by, alone. She wants to love someone. She wants to meet someone by the sea shore who would never let her go. She wants to be someone that she herself won't let go.




She lives in the extremes-dark nights or bright mornings. She gets intoxicated in twilights. She wilts on those lonely afternoons.

She loves to put her hands under her armpits on winters. She likes writing her name on the fogged window panes. She stands under the rain with an open mouth. She wears nothing but a thin linen of a cloth on summer afternoons. She sits at the edge of the cliff and watches the nature fill colors in springs. She likes rainbows.


She writes a diary. She writes a page every day and then tears it before she goes to sleep. Her diary is nothing but a book of torn pages. She is still as her shadow when she writes. She never confesses. She prays in whispers and sings in hums.

She is acutely sensitive to her surroundings. She falls in love with the sparks that fly around her. And when the world moves, she refuses to. Something freezes inside her. She walks ahead but her past lays frozen inside..



She smiles at you.. She smiles at me! She is somebody I was and can never be! :)

Monday, September 02, 2013

LOVE, CAN NEVER CEASE.

                                                       

                                                  
Then, anger  
                        was a crease in the brow
                                   and silence
                                 a catastrophe.
                              Then, making up
                            was a mutual smile
                                  and a glance
                                       a gift.
 
                      Now, just look at this mess
                    that you've made of that love.
                          You grovel at my feet
                               and I berate you
                    and can't let my anger go.

P.S- Love for me can be never a feeling but a mixture of several feelings, its life in life itself, an art which is not gifted to many. gifted are the people who have some one to share their concern, anger, care, passion.... 

It can be hard sometimes, demand you to snatch out your feelings and throw away forever, yet when you see that person your heart melts. again.

P.P.S- This happened somewhere in  between my class, leaving me in astonishment and amazement.

P.P.S- The pic I have always loved the way Edward hugs Bella is always sorta passionate yet tender yet sooo sensual to me. <3 <3
 

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

STORMING EMOTIONS.

A long time away from blogging....

Life has changed beyond for me by now... his moment, as I sit here to pen down my feelings... my hands tremble and I fumble on words. there's a storm of emotions on loose I guess...

I find it hard to stabilize myself and gain control on the emotions, yet I have tried to make out a poem depicting one of many emotions dwelling in me...


                                                          MISERABLE


                                      
My aching heart...this fatal hollowness
These bleeding eyes...
That long to see you smiling back at me....
Miles apart, when u severe me from you
I lose myself wandering in my nothingness
I walked in the rain...Burning in my endless pain....
I cry and scream out as I go on...

My woeful nightmare
My fears have come true..
The stark darkness an this numb aching heart...
I walk without coming to an end....
Lost your trail in the rain...
I hate being on my own.....

My dreams have blacked out...
My thoughts are fading now.....
After wandering...this long...in my eternal abyss
I had found my ray of hope.....
I found love, I found peace....
Now YOU are acting like this goner...
and I want u back...... I cant seem to find you anywhere..

Piece by piece we fall apart....
and every piece just slows down my heart....
I thought I was THE IRREPLACEABLE....
I believed that I had made THE DIFFERENCE...
You are walking away
I will keep calling after you.... will keep chasing u...
No matter where,....no matter how!!!

Without you, there's no world I could think of.....
It becomes a nightmare that closes in on me..
Here in this little world of mine...
In my heart...in my dreams...
In my desires..is where you took!!!
I THOUGHT you felt the same...

Now it seems like I HAVE FAILED......
Our dream that I was fixing......
My portrait of "US" is fumbling
Your silence and ignorance never cease to tear me apart.....
This incessant n perpetual pain.....

I WISH I could find some solace.......I wish I find you again!