Monday, February 27, 2012


When things get tough just remember*:

 (1) This life is a test and Allah is testing us.

(2) This dunya is very short and then comes the Day of Judgement. 

(3) Remember the trials of the Prophets, Shahabas, Scholars, and have patience.

 (4) With patience comes immense reward.

 (5) Death is at our doorstep and what really matters is if you obeyed Allah's commands or not.

 (6) For the pious, Jannah will be there final home.

You never know how STRONG you're.. 
Until being strong is the only choice you have.. 

I can do the best!
And leave it to Allah the rest! 


Okay.. so this is something I came up when imaging me and my BEST friends came up hyd with when we were having a moment of best friend good time! =) love you both!! =* There is no medicine better than a friend, a true selfless caring friend.. trust me!
and for you both I am still drowning in those moments we spend... :)

here goes!

I hea, u whea, no fair.

I eat. U hungry. No fair.

I pony tail. U bald, no hair.

I tired. U sit, no chair.

I sing, u hear, u scared.

I lonely, u dance, I stare.

I trip, u laugh, no fair.

U sad, u cry, I cheer.

I sad. U tease. No fair.

I angry. U calm. I yell.

I calm. U hug, I swell.

I secrets. U keep. No tell.

I, you, we together, we gel.

I dance. U try. I cough.

U dance. I hide. My laugh.

I camera. U pose. Say cheese.

I run, u chase. Police!

I lame, u lame. We rock!

Hot guys, facebook, we stalk!

I knock, u lock, no fair.

I listen. U talk, poor ears.

I jog, u walk. I fat.

I slap, u slap. So fair.

U hand. I hand. Held tight.

U here. Me here, sun bright.

Hold hands, we shall, forever fair.


Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just...

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile...

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile


The Clock at my Night stand keeps ticking away
But that "feeling" it never goes away..
The imagination never stops...
And the world is the same as it was a decade ago...
But that "feeling" it never goes away...

Laughter, Talks, Decisions in Profession

Get Together, Hangouts, Celebrations
Everything at its crust, Everything at it bests
But even an hour without that "feeling" don't last
And the Clock is ticking fast..

Looking around seeing those who are the closest

Owning Materialism, most deserving, only the best 
But that "feeling" hovers every minute, every day
And the clock keeps ticking away..

Morning starts with it all around

Night refuses to end without it somehow
Its existence expanding the void, long forgotten..

Suffocation is, when words refuses to define it

And the expression fails to explain it
As I desperately try to find out what it is,
where it comes from and the reason of why it exist....

But the clock at my night stand keeps ticking away

And that "feeling" stubbornly refuses to go away...

Wednesday, February 22, 2012


 A very personal post and really near to my heart...
the last five days are the most memorable days of my life... alhumdullila cant thank enough for the amount of happiness I got....

The two most important man of my life else my brothers and father obviously were by my side... FARAZ and JUNAID.... love you both so much....
gosh already missing you both..... I know you both might be still rewinding those moments and laughing smiling or wishing to be back together again..... "The initiation has been taken and the future is inshallah good"- Mr Wikipedia...

We did make a heap of memories and surely are going to miss each other I am sure faraz you might have got the SHOCK OF YOUR LIFE after seeing me... lol m such a freak.. but remember this there's life in me and if there's a life its just because of my friends and more than you both no one else could be dearer to me

You guys are my strength as well as my weakness....
my personal shoulders to cry on... and my only shoulders to cry on else you both I don't think I can rely on anyone else in this world!
I can't seriously forget these five days spent with you both its starting from the first hello to the last goodbye each day, each moment was EPIC!!!!!

I wish our next meeting be such a doze of happiness and upliftment too....
This ones is for me lol everyone wants attention... I should have climbed the treee... koi baat nahi next time I will..
                      our last day together this reminds me of our beloved place EATSTREET!
I now notices it, most of the times I was in the middle.. why so???
                            lol, at a stage your affection made me imagine this too... :)
lol I cant get off faraz's detailing's and junaids peel peel... lol that makes me laugh so much...  hey guys I got something to show or remind  though we three were so lost in each other that we didn't use faraz's camera, Google always helps alot ;) so this particular still's of new york does make me feel gosh I will miss u and I love you both...

wish we get a long holiday together sometime soon inshallah..... :) :) :) 
till then stay in touch, I know now we three can't live without those confo calls and texts, and hope it gets more frequent...
I do feel our friendship strengthened after these five days.... and inshallah it grows into the strongest ever!


you will never know..
how much your smile lights up me...
how much your laughter fills my soul..
making all the little problems of day disappear..

You will never know..
how much it means to me..
when you do or say something
thoughtful and totally unexpected..
usually just at the moment I need it most..

You will never know..
how much pride I hold in my heart..
for the person you are and the things you do..
for your strength and your gentleness..
your courage and your determination..
your accomplishments and your dreams..

You will never know
how much I need you by my side..
in the best of times and the worst of times
and all the times in between...
It really doesn't matter where we are
or what we are doing..
as long as we are together to share it all.

P.S- this ones for the very very very special shadab i know you might be laughing after reading this, i just hope it gives u immense joy and soggy eyes( khushi ke ansu)
already missing you! 

Tuesday, February 21, 2012


Doctor, I need to confess a secret
Hidden among many layers
Of fake smiles and dry tears
I need to know if I am okay

There are times when the world
Seems to turn upside down
The walls crumble and people intrude
They don’t respect my privacy
Or the fact that I am a recluse
They come closer till I’m suffocated
My mind feels as if its about to burst
How can I stop this?

Criticism, is difficult to digest
Though I am used to being loathed and cursed
For I have known nothing beyond that
I do not wish to blame
But won’t hide the responsibility
Which rests on my family for being so
I can’t remember being loved or adored at home
But when the same dislike
Comes from an outside
It tears my heart apart
And wrecks my concentration
Not only do my eyes drown in tears of self-pity
But the nerves stop functioning as well
My hands freeze and drop things
I cannot co-ordinate myself
The feeling of crumbling becomes real
Too real, I’m afraid
How can I stop this?

The poison of guilt flows through me
A guilt devoid of reason
Maybe of the failure tattooed on my fate
Or maybe because life seems like a drag
And everyday is a new torture
I desperately hold on to the things that keep me alive
And yet, the worth of myself remains invisible
I am scared to look over the past
And ponder on my doings
The conclusion might over-whelm me
The fear, how can I escape it?
How can I stop this?

My head feels heavy
My skin burns
My stomach churns
My vision blurs
I feel I have had too much to take for once
Doctor, will I die?


why were we to say farewell,
when we still long to go back on that very trail,

why was our love to drain,

when your thought still makes my soul to sprain,

why were our cherished dream to shatter,

when on both ends, the hearts flutter,

why were we to let go that moment,

when we knew, it'll be a lifelong torment,

why were we to cut that mutual beam,
when emotions still teem,

why was that road to take such a drastic bend,

when every giggle hollers to be mend,

we are moving on and we will speed up on our paths,

we will glance back, look for the footprints into the gone,

all we would find is,

'traces so dusted

things so disgusted!'


“Alas!,” said the mouse, “The World is growing smaller everyday. At first it was so wide that I was afraid. I ran and was glad when at last I saw in the distance walls to the right and left; but these long walls are hurrying so quickly towards one another that I am already in the last room, and there in the corner stands the trap into which I am running.” “You have only to change direction,” said the cat – ate it up.
-From ‘A Little Fable’ by Franz Kafka

The meaning here is Universal. Everyone’s life starts with hopes and expectations. Gradually, experience tells most of us that we have a more limited path to follow. As we progress, we find – no matter what route we take or what advice we follow or ignore – that we all reach the same end.
Which same end?,  “Death” …!!!
You see, as a teenager people will of course question me, that why I think about death, when my life have just started. Well, we must know that “Life is unpredictable”, whether you live in a metropolitan city of US or in a village of some third World country.  Everyone has to die, in one way or another. Some die of hunger or thirst, some die with any fatal kind of disease while others with stress or tension … Though many die of any other reason …!!!
Death is indeed inevitable but have you ever thought, WHY DO WE DIE???
The reason, which an amateur person like me found is that “This life has a PURPOSE and we are sent here, for a REASON. And if we complete our life purposefully with the knowledge of reason, then of course we need not to fear the death but we must fear what kind of and how much deeds are we taking with our soul, to stand in front of Allah [The Creator of Heavens and Earth], on the Day of Judgement.”

"How can you disbelieve in Allah when you were lifeless and He brought you to life; then He will cause you to die, then He will bring you to life, and then to Him you will be returned." 
[Surah Baqarah : verse no. 28] Al Qur'an

Thus proved from this verse, that The Creator created us and Only He has the power to take our lives back. Which also proves, that WE ARE NOTHING AS COMPARED TO HIM AND OUR LIFE IS INDEED UNPREDICTABLE ...!!! And after death, we will indeed be resurrected, to give our account. 

They indeed are losers who denied their Meeting with Allah until all of a sudden, the Hour (signs of death) is on them, and they say: "Alas for us that we gave no thought to it," while they will bear their burdens on their backs; and evil indeed are the burdens that they will bear! 
[Surah Al-'An'am : verse no. 31]Al Qur’an

You see, we get only one chance and this is the time we must utilize our strengths and efforts, for Allah and His deen. Though many will question, that why spend time for good deeds, when the system itself is corrupted and why spend such precious years of life for religion, when normally youth enjoy and have fun time and we will have old age to do, all those religious stuff. Well, I am NOT saying you to stop enjoying or having fun but we must know, everything have limits and so does our enjoyments. And the second thing is that if you are restricting old age for religious duties, then you are MISTAKEN. Because when you are old, you don’t have strength to be regular, or active. You also lose independence and who knows, whether you will survive that long or not.

And continue worshiping thy Lord till death comes to you.
[Surah Al-Hijr: verse no. 99]Al Qur’an

If  you aren’t clear till now, that what’s the purpose of your life, then read the given verse again.
Yes! The reason why you are sent here, is to worship Allah. But you should also know that worshipping is NOT restricted to Salah or Saum only. In it’s broader sense, it means to do those acts, which pleases Allah, like trying hard to get good education to teach those who can’t enjoy this blessing, becoming an active member of society, helping the poor and hungry, getting informed and keeping others updated, so that they won’t find any difficulty to make decisions, trying your best to follow the teachings of Qur’an in your daily routine, even participating in cleaning your street and etc. So there is a lot you can do. Right now, you need that will and push …!!! And stop making EXCUSES as well …!!!

And the life of this world is nothing but play and amusement. But far better is the house in the Hereafter for those who are Al-Muttaqun (the pious - see V.2:2). Will you not then understand?
[Surah Al-'An'am : verse no. 32]Al Qur’an

We created not the heavens and the earth and all that is between them for a (mere) play.
[Surah Al-'Anbya: verse no. 16]Al Qur’an

Those who remember Allah, standing, sitting, and lying down on their sides, and think deeply about the creation of the heavens and the earth, (saying): "Our Lord! You have not created this without purpose, glory to You! Give us salvation from the torment of the Fire.
[Surah 'Ale Imran : verse no. 191] Al Qur’an  *Ameen*

We all have hopes and expectations in the early phase of life and that’s very natural. In fact I would suggest you to have dreams and hopes till the end of your life, so that you have a reason behind every action. But don’t get so much involved in your dreams, that you forget the real purpose of your life – That is to Worship Allah and work according to His will. In fact, you need to have everything WITH BALANCE  …!!!


Mind is still.....but heart plays...
Here and and fro...
Stirring the a messy way....
Like the ripples in the water...

Being a human is pretty difficult.....
Some say live for urself.....some say live for others....
Why not be an animal and live a life with momentary anticipations....
No matter how it ends.....
Like the ripples in the water....

Circumference your apprehensions....
Streamline thyself...Coz there's a world beyond this one....
But are we really aware....of thee...
Like the ripples in the water...

Vision is blinded....No path to pave....
Whom to believe.....what to give...what to take....
Surroundings cognize opposite....
Like the ripples in the water....!!


What is a friend? Ill tell you
It is a person with whom you are to be
yourself –Your soul can go naked with him
He seems to ask you to put on nothing
Appreciating you for who you truthfully are

When you are with him, you do not have to be
on your guard .You can say what you think
So long as it is genuinely you

He understands the contradictions in your
nature which cause others to
misjudge you. With him you breathe freely….
You can profess your little vanities,
Envies and absurdities –and in opening
Them up to him, they are vanished
Onto the white ocean of his loyalty
He understands. You can weep with him,
laugh with him, pray with him
through it all, he sees, knows and loves you
P.S- dear, dear dearest faraz :), when you will be reading this I hope you will be back to delhi... I cant say u how terribly i will be missing you... hope to see u soon.. glad you came...and this ones just for you... <3 <3 <3


I just thought of posting about one of my profoundest obsessions guitar ! :)

dont you guys love guitar ! ??? i toh love 'em like anything !!! beautiful it is !
here posting some i'd really like to own some day ! xD i'm gonna buy them all when i start earning ! :P or any of you can gift me xD........ i won't mind ... no really i wont :P i'll accpt them as your love ! regards , kindness ... etc etc etc..... ok ..!! whatevr! chuck ! !! eehh!!!  :P

  • This one is classy, elegant ! :> & black is so my color ! ;) 

  • This gives me that rockstar wala feel !!! xD

  •          The must have !!! <3

  • This is so so so ssoooo amaziinnnnng ! isnt it ..? shiney ! sexy glittery guitAr ! ;) *.*
    taylor rocks!!! \m/

im so sorry taylor !!! -.- but no comparisons to this ! avril is way ahead with this pink one !!!! ^.^
damn! dis is so pink !!! sparkly, glittery ! love anything that glitters ! *.*
friends ..? are you goin through this post of mine !! ? :P :P   gift me this one ..!!! pwwwwwwwwwwwleeeeessseeeeeeeeeeee!!! *makin stupidest/cutest face ever!*

no ...? humphhhh ! :| sure ..?? henh! :(

nevr mind ..!!!!    i'll buy myself !!! :D

To shine is better then to reflect ! ;)



I keep my words till end to assess the honesty at opposite end
My heart is very disappointed to see the trend
I am amazed at myself to expect the basic courtesy in return
I was let down to see how true colors of people flourished
They lack even the basic potential to show off and pretend

I practice reverence when I meet people from all walks of life
I am disappointed to see the changing spirits and vibes
Why they find it so hard to be themselves and gallant
I am amazed to see them fulfill mean expectations by phony talents
With no iota of doubt their trivial portico is two faced and hearts vacant

I practice silence when I meet imposters to assess my patience
I am disappointed to see the lack of basic humility and decorum
They try to pull you down from their mean attempts
Ironically they forget or essentially lack the vital edification
Law of nature says what you practice today always get back in return

I practice composure when I meet bigheaded to assess my humility 
I am astounded to see how they carry the heaviness of superiority on their sleeves
The layer of arrogance haze their judgment with false impression it will never cease      
They look out over the fact that time changes within the fraction of seconds
I am not madden on the contrary feel pity for their trivial actions

I practice humility when I come across jabbers and absurdity
I preserve calmness as they say brevity is the soul of wit
Wisdom does not allow me to pay attention on those who talk big
In long term swanks always learn their lessons and have their heads down
When you have faith he leads to destiny and rewards you very big

I try to distend in anomalous situations to assess my vigor and potency
I am amazed from where I gather strength to fight with full spirit
I practice to not come in terms till I stumble on my accomplishments
I am a maniac to risk very often despite I know things may never return