NEITHER LOVER NOR HATRED

If even for a moment, you had
Gazed into my eyes, you could have seen

 What it was, what it could have been

 Of all the things between us

That were said never

“I am there” stayed awaited forever

Of all the times together we spent

The moment arrived never

When you held me for ever

Of all the moments I spent

 Thinking about you

Then you were far somewhere

Smiling with someone else

I cringe, cower, repent and hate myself

You misunderstood my wishes

Yet blame it all on me

You backed away when I was down

Yet I feel it was me

If even for a moment, you had

Gazed into my eyes, you could have seen

What it was, what it could have been

All I wanted, wasn’t the walk

 With coherent steps, hands in hands

Neither a lifetime of romance

Nor lying in stars or a rain dance

But a promise to never let go

A will to stay evermore

A command to be yours forever

A silent commitment to not give up too soon 

Now that it’s over

All we had is now- was

The foot prints you left

Teach me, remind me

Of failure I embody

Now a void has replaced 

The innocence you stole